My last post was kind of the low point in my life. I was spinning out. I had more days that i wanted to just pack my stuff that i had to have into my van, leaving room to sleep and just start driving off into the night with no destination or return.

I looked into getting a small trailer i could tow behind the minivan, and seriously was ready to drop the money on it.

My mood swings we far and wide. I needed help. I went to my family doctor who is also a mental health doctor… we talked for almost an hour and I started on two meds, which have helped calm me down. I try not to get myself worked up about small things, and just let it be what it be.

I have found that I am wearing more often, quite often it is 24/7 for weeks at a time with the rare day off.

In July I was able to go to CAPCon and see friends. I am happy to say that I did not come home with CoVid from there, I am in a small group for that. It was a blast and I am so glad I could attend. I probably spent more on things than i should have.