CAPCon 2018

Let me first state that I was apprehensive about attending this event with all the issues leading up to it.

First let me say that this is my second capcon, but not my first convention or large function fetish or not.

I’m going to be fair and honest with you of how I felt about CAPcon.

The annoying stuff

Hotel related stuff – I find it utter bull that rooms needed to be paid up front, not to mention through a shady system like PayPal. Any other convention I have attended the hotel booking was totally handled by the hotel itself and rooms were secured with a credit card (even if the room was non refundable within 7-14 days would be better). What the organizers fail to fully comprehend is that some people truly live paycheck to paycheck so floating an extra $300+ 7 to 10 months out is extremely hard.

The room rates increased because breakfast was not included in the package.

Meals – while it is freaking awesome that you all decided to do meals, the idea of prepaying, then having an 18% gratuity slapped on there on top of the high amount for food turned people off.  From what I heard from others, the food was not truly worth the cost.  It also sucked that you could not just buy a general Lunch or Dinner ticket and use it for whatever day you wanted…. which meant if you missed lunch on Friday, they were not able to be used for Saturday.  Again most travelers expect a breakfast included in the cost of their accommodations it is as simple as that.

The pre-con dinner – frankly being required to repurchase a ticket for an onsite buffet just so you could socialize with people before the con stinks.

Why am I harping on food? – Some people don’t like or do buffets, some people have special dietary restrictions and need to stay away from certain foods, or cannot eat enough to get the value out of the meal.

The schedule – First off the con did not start on Thursday in my opinion.  Other cons that state they start on Thursday actually have activities and con space open on that first day. The only activities were an opening ceremony, which I was not arrived for, and a pre con dinner which as I stated above could have been done different so those who don’t care to eat could at least socialize.  This just seemed to be a ploy to make people think that the con was longer than it was.

Next your schedule was hard to read, not that it mattered as you didn’t keep to it. Class location changes, events added, events moved, etc… in the future you should post a daily board with what is happening, when and where….. or do something like a daily newsletter like a cruise does.  Also have a break in the schedule for dinner and lunch; I mean how are people supposed to eat the overpriced hotel buffet that they had to prepay and preplan for when there is no time to get food.

Digital Devices – This was a big joke.  One there is no way you can see if those stickers had been tripped by just a casual glance.  Two nobody was checking them.  Three, they take away from the convention in a way.  I work for a wireless carrier, i hae a phone in my hand every day all day.  For me it was so nice to NOT bring my phone with me to the con space.  My phone and iPad were in my room unless I was leaving the hotel for dinner.

Photography – I decided to go red band this year due to the debacle last year.  While it will be sad that I will not be in any photos or receiving any photos from the con, it is what it is.  Personally I did not see the official con photographer very often.

A cool idea would be to have an area or “scene” setup for people to get a posed photo (like you have at an amusement park, or attraction).  I think that the spacecraft rocker that Tykeables brought with a space backdrop behind it would have been a great photo opportunity for the attendees to have something that has the convention name and if needed names of the sponsors on it.  The key being that it is something that they can take with them immediately either as a hard print or emailed to themselves.

Just because I am red band, does not mean I don’t want photos…. I just want control over who has my photos.



Now What I Loved.

The vendors.  I bought pin-on buttons from a vendor upstairs, a pacifier and clip from Little Kink.

I loved the classes that I attended, babiedboi’s  classes always bring the warmth and love of the community out.

I loved the presentation by Cwis  from and look forward to the results of the survey that he conducted being posted along with the video (update here is the video)  – I want to know that there are others out there like me, those who got their start in diapers at a very very early age.  I want to know what makes up this community, how we all got started, and hopefully find out if there is a common thread in all our lives… so far I really don’t think there is anything that draws us all to diapers and being little other than we just like wearing diapers and being little

Shout out to Zach (Mid America Little) and Andy (The Padded Puppy) for their session on positive social media for the ABDL community.  It has made me get closer to going over the fence and starting to vlog about my life of being an ABDL.  What holds me back now is the fear of my family, friends, etc finding the content and finding out about me.  Also if I can handle the negative aspect of the comments that could ensue, and if I am stable enough to put me out there.  Plus I need to find a place to be able to video at…. those who truly know me know my house is a mess and packed to the gills with stuff.

Last but not least I cannot forget being able to see so many wonderful friends that I have made over the years.  People I follow on instagram and people I have chatted with over the past 22 years that  have been on the internet.  Without the encouragement of many of these people over the years, many of us ABDL’s would not have what we have today.  It is so cute to see AB’s that were not even born when I got back into diapers, many of them still have that youthful exuberance in them as I watched them tear up and down the play space on the big wheels and trikes.  Oh to have that level of physical youth again to go with the youthful mindset.  For me I am happy just snuggling with my Pooh bear, drinking my bottle and relaxing in a quiet place.

I am shy at first and then I will open up and you’ll wish I was too shy to speak.

Some closing thoughts:

If you are an ABDL, Little, AgePlayer, Diaper Lover, Adult Toddler…. whatever you consider yourself.  You are truly NOT ALONE.  I know it can be scary to meet others, but rest assured that we all thought we were alone in this at one time or another.  Look up a nearby munch if going to a full blown party or convention is just too much for you at this point in your life; but get out there and be yourself.

If you are on the fence about going to a convention or party, and it is within driving distance…..GO FOR IT!!!  You will not regret it.  If it gets to be too much, find a quiet place or go back to your room.



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I’ve been very neglectful.

I used to blog almost all the time but have fallen away from doing it.  Does anybody still read blogs anymore…. it seems it all is Instagram, YouTube, Snapchat, etc…

Well, I am going to TRY to start blogging again. I just checked and it appears that I lost my diaper diary that I used to keep going clear back to 1996.  Yes for you young littles, I’ve been back in diapers longer than some of you’ve been alive.

I just turned the big 4-0, and I don’t really feel older, but I am… I can’t hang with the young kids anymore in terms of partying, drinking, knowing what’s hip and cool.  But then again I never could.

As I grow older (but not UP!) I am finding myself feeling “alone”.  While I’m never really alone except on the drive to and from work; I live with my mother who is getting older too.  I know one day she won’t be around, and I will then be truly alone… with nobody to do things with, nobody to share my secret with that can give me an outsiders point of view.

I say that I’m not looking for anybody, but I am looking, but I will wait until I find that special person that I can spend my life with, and not just a season.

I tell my mom that I don’t want her to feel like she is tying me down or holding me back from doing what I want to do, but in a ways I think I’m tying myself down taking care of her, not wanting to abandon her like my dad did.

Then again I wonder if I am the one holding her back.  Let’s face it, I am a 40 year old manchild, who’s mom packs his lunch, does his laundry, and basically cleans up after him. All these tasks I could probably do on my own, but if left to do them would certainly mess them up.

I have dreams that I want to attain.  Recently I have really latched onto wanting a crib; a nursery of my own.  I want to wake up each day, teddybear in a hug, me in my onsie and diaper; to look out and see a barrier keeping me in my bed.  It does not need to be a huge crib like you see at the conventions or on the TV shows making fun of us.  Just simply a bed that I cannot just swing my feet over the edge of the bed and get out of.

Where do I go from here?  I don’t know, I really just take it day to day…. I plan special time ahead, like CAPCon where I am sitting here typing this as I watch the sun rise on the last official day of the event.  I’ve got TeddyCon coming up.  I also know that I can wear pretty much on the weekends and days off along with overnight.


Teddycon 2017

since I missed TeddyCon in 2016, I decided to buy my ticket as early as possible, buying my ticket in January of 2017.  I had made the choice to skip CAPCon as it was too close to another vacation.

Back in January, October seemed so far away for this little…  “It’s 9 months….. That’s forever” my little brain said.  Oh but those 9 months came very quick when it got down to the last 2 months.

The trip was over 7 hours long.  I knew I was not going to try and drive myself, or else it may take two days.  So I decided to ride with my longtime ABDL friend Jeffy (AKA Zippy).

The plan was that when I got off work on Wednesday night we would go get dinner, crash at his house and then take off in the wee hours of the morning.  We went to bed about 10 pm and then got back up a little after 1 am.  We were loaded and on the road by 2:30 AM.

We might have made better time if both of us had been padded up, but neither of us did.  We arrived at the hotel shortly before 11:00 AM.  The Con started at 1:00 but the hotel was already bustling with littles and their personalities.  I walked around and ended up sitting down with a bunch of people in what somebody termed “the living room” a hallway with tons of chairs and couches

By about 2:30 the hotel was letting people check in, which was great as I was very hot and sweaty and my little inside me was about to have a meltdown.  I got to my room and cranked the AC all the way down to 60 degrees while I stopped sweating, then slowly brought the room back up.

I got diapered up and  in my Rearz Safari onsie and I hit the con with Pooh.  I walked over to the ABU table and the guy asked “What size are you”.  Thinking he was trying to sell me some diapers I said XL and he said “well your choices are the lavender or the preschool plastic” and then he grabbed a bag and gave them to me!!!  Shout out to AB Universe, that was so neat

If you have never been to TeddyCon, you have no clue what you are infact missing out on.  There are activities like arts and crafts, story time, a nursery, messy activities with finger paint, shaving cream, etc.  There are vendors there selling all sorts of diapers and clothes.  Bestest of all is all the new people you meet and hang out with.  The con ends at 10 or 11pm but I can tell you the party don’t stop till at least 2 am.  We roasted marshmellows sang around the fire pit and talked.

Hosting or attending an event.

Often I hear people say “Why are there never any events in my area.  I don’t want to drive that far”

All events start with one person taking that leap to host one.  There are several levels  of events

We have Munches, Parties and Conventions.


A Munch for lack of a better term is a publicly announced dinner/lunch date. This is the easiest thing to host!  All you need is a date, time and a place.  Find a place that you don’t mind eating at, some place that is not too expensive, and not too close to being fast food.  We have used Golden Corral type places, and sit down restaurants like Old Bag of Nails.

The reason for munches are to get to know people in a neutral, vanilla atmosphere.  This is often a pre-cursor for going to a party or Convention

Next find a date and time.  You usually want to stick to Saturday and Sunday, as this is usually when people are off work; though some groups do their munches through the week.  Now for time.  I suggest to not make it too early or too late; maybe 2pm to 5pm.  If you make it too late you will not have time for people to stick around, those who drove from a distance will not want to come if they have to work tomorrow.  Too early and people may not be able to drive that distance.  If you want to hold monthly munches, stay with the same place, time and date (ie. 2nd saturday of each month)

If the place takes reservations, make reservations.  This is why we use sit-down restaurants rather than the buffet styles. Try to be early if you are the host, as people will come early and scope out the place and may leave.

The dress at a munch is totally vanilla.  This means that you can wear a diaper if you want, but you must be properly dressed as an adult.  PJ bottoms, obvious little attire, and stuffed animals DO NOT BELONG HERE.  A rule of thumb is if you would not wear it to visit your grandma or if you have seen it on  – then it does not belong at the munch!


The best thing with a munch…. If nobody shows up, you still eat!



You made it through your first munch or two.  Now it is time to let your little out.

Parties are held in private homes, hotels and party houses.  Again, you should arrive in vanilla street attire, and once inside the party there are places to change.  A party often lasts the whole day or sometimes starts the night before.  There is usually a small cost to attend to cover the expenses to host the party

Activities can vary at parties, but there is always food, fun and friends.  When I used to hold parties I would always do food that can simply be heated up and plated.  Finger foods are great (pizza, chicken nuggets, fries, etc) – afterall you are dealing with toddlers for the most part.

Arts and crafts are a major thing at parties – there are blocks, crayons, play-doh, finger paints, etc

There are littles in their little clothing, sippy cups in their faces, stuffed animals at a close grip.

Usually there will be music and movies playing.  People will be sharing their tips and tricks, showing off the diapers that they love, and the clothes that play into who their little is.

You will typically have around 20 people at a party.  A good tip is to have something that everybody can make and take home with them.

As a host, it is always nice when others volunteer to help out at the party; be it helping fix the food, helping setup and clean up, etc… The host would like to be able to enjoy themselves as well.


Conventions (Cons)

This is like a party taken to the next level.  These are multiple day events, including a large playspace that includes things like cribs, playpens, ball pits, massive amounts of arts and crafts stuff.  There are usually vendors selling their wares, and some sort of classes/presenters.

The first Con I attended was CapCon 2016 in Chicago.  It was a blast!!  It was 3 days of being able to let my little loose, and to meet with others from around the world.  By some estimates – there were close to 300 people at that convention.

Again you will arrive in vanilla attire and change once in the space.  After the Con at night you may visit a private room party where who knows what will go on.

These events are often a ticketed event and do have rules that all have to agree to.


In closing start out at a munch and make yourself known.  This will help you get invited to parties, and able to attend conventions as well.

Why am I an AB

People always want to know “What got you into diapers?”  I frankly don’t know… The more I look back on my life, I keep finding new reasons why.  At this point I think it almost goes back to my cousin being born, which is strange, because I had cousins older and younger than me already.  Before him, my aunt would watch me at her house.  I think her house was one of the first ones that I slept overnight at.  Once she got pregnant, I wanted nothing to do with the new-to-be baby.  I didn’t want to feel him kick; and once he was born, my mom claims that I didn’t even want to look at him….

It could also go back to when my mom took care of my great grandmother after he stroke; she was in diapers and had to be changed and cared for by my mom all the time.

Then again it could go back to that bag of diapers that were in the front closet (side note: I was kept in cloth except when there was a sitter or we were going someplace – mom said so).

The last incident was when I was 12 and had heart surgery, i woke up in a diaper in the ICU.  I don’t believe I used it, it was mainly to cover me up.  I also saw other kids my age and older in diapers too.


The best answer on how I got into diapers would revolve around a typical night.  I grab a diaper and stuffer from my diaper stack, walk back towards the bed, switch off the light and then toss my stuff on the bed.  I then turn on the flashlight on my phone, spread out my diaper and stuffer, powder up the back of the diaper.  I then tell Pooh he’s bad and he replies “ha ha you wear diapees” to which I remind him that he has one on too.  I finish powdering the front up and then pull the diaper up and tape it up, roll over an go to be…. That is how I got into diapers last night, and it will be how I get into them tonight.

Stay Padded, DNH

About me

Hello all,  My name is…., well it’s not important; just call me DiaperNH, or NH.  I am 38, male and live outside of Central Ohio in a home with my (real not AB) mother.

I have been into diapers since May of 1996.  My mom has known about my diapers since that very first night when I bought diapers.

Being active in the ABDL community is very important to me.  I attend munches, parties and most recently I attended CapCon 2016.

I see myself as a child who’s age ranges from 3 to 13; he always has to wear diapers, but as he gets older he really doesn’t want to have to wear diapers like a baby, often fighting that initial diaper change saying “Noooo, I don’t wanna wear a diaper, please don’t make me wear diapers, I’ll be a good boy, I promise”

Mostly I will just wet my diapers, but sometimes messing a diaper just has to happen, sometimes by choice, sometimes it is a  accident (I promise!)  I still need my sippy cup as I tend to spill drinks, sometimes I need a bottle too.

Let’s not forget about Pooh!  Yes, every little needs their faithful teddy bear.  He’s mouthy, lazy and sweet and loving all in one little package.  If I were to ever loose him (again), I’d probably be lost for weeks on end.  I left him in a suitcase with my CPAP one night and that was the worst night of sleep I had in many years.

After being in diapers longer than I have been out of them, I don’t see that changing (ha ha) anytime soon.  I don’t see myself moving away from my mom either, as it seems that she is the only one who understands who I am, plus she is getting older and is retired.  Financially it would not work for either of us to be on our own.

I am hoping that one day I can achieve some of my goals.  Be more open about my little side with everybody, which would help with my next goal.  Get a crib, ever since sleeping in another AB’s crib years ago, I long to wake up in the night and look around me and see the crib bars.  I probably have others rolling around in my head, but I can’t think of them now.